“I was scared and didn’t know what to do.”
So on Monday night I was feeling suicidal and so I called my friend that I’m always talking about on here and told her basicly that I was going to the next day go to school, go to dance, and then I was going to kill my self and of course she freaked. Well, you can’t blame her though. I would’ve freaked out to if the girl I’m helping get better called me and told me she was gonna kill herself. But she told me to go talk to my parents and get help and of course I said that I didn’t want help and she told me that I didn’t need to be going through with it and that the next day at dance she was gonna sit down and talk to me and MAKE me listen. The next day I talked to my coach about it and she found out because she went to go talk to my coach about it too (after I already did) and so she was happy with me but not for long… after our first class of the day got out I told her “don’t get me wrong just because I talked to her doesn’t mean I’m not still going hrough with it” and she said “Bull Shit, you’ll be in my class on monday (she’s my tap teacher)” and so she was obviously pissed at me and didn’t belive me and since I get out while she’s in a class those were the last words we said to each other until she got out. After she got out I called her and she said to call her back later but if her phone is dead it’s dead cause she doesn’t have her charger. But the way she said it made me cry… and so later I called her back and she didn’t answer so I called one of my other friends at dance and talked to her about it and she and her had aperently had a convo. and the friend that is pissed at me told the girl I called that she was feeling Disobeyed and Lied to. The next day Katelyn (the girl who’s pissed at me) didn’t show up at Hip Hop so I figured fuck she doesn’t even want to talk to me at all. But today I called her and strangly her dad answered but he, he’s funny he was acting like an indian I just said real hesitantly “Um… is Katelyn there” and he asked me who was calling and I told him and suprisingly she actually piced up the phone and I just said look I know ur pissed at me and all but why? and she said “I’m not mad at you I was just scared and didn’t know what to do” so I’m happy now because at least she’s not mad at me…
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