I find myself feeling suicidal resently… today when I was shaving my legs I got cut and it brought back many old feelings and thoughts and I just don’t know what to do with myself… do I give in to my old feelings? or do I give myself a slap in the wrists and try to ignore it as if it wern’t even there? Please help… some one… I’m like a lost dog with no home…
Life in genaral has its ups and its downs yes, but, it seems like in mine there happen to be more downs right now than ups. My vaction is going pretty okay but there DEFINANTLY have been downs… I got to spen two nights in a penthouse in south beach, Miami, Florida and it totally changed some of my veiws on the world. It made me realize that deep down inside that happy me IS still there… but then now that I’m here in Key west I’m realizing that the “old” me has done nothing but been buried… on the outside I’ve changed so much but on the inside its still me… depression and all… I try to just take my life day by day, step by step but its defanantly not easy….
