Taking my life day by day, step by step.

 I finally feel at peace with myself. Its sort of complicated because I don’t really even think its possible with all that is going on in my life right now and yet I am. I think that if there is a god… that it may be his way of saying that there’s a spot for me ready. I don’t know if I feel ready yet though. Even through all of the confusion and sadness I still feel at peace with myself. I dont know exactly what is happening to me but I do definantly hope that this feeling lasts a very long time. I’m able to smile and belive in it again. But on the other hand it could be that there is a spot for me in hell. I know I will never be normal but the feeling Im feeling now is of human nature…